This story was published on The Mighty by Victoria Kushner , a platform for people facing health challenges to share their stories and connect. If you have ever had a tragedy of any magnitude in your life occur, you have probably heard that “it gets better.”This phrase has never comforted me. To me, it sounds like a motivational poster out of a doctor’s office. There is a reason that people don’t read those.
Fall 2003, I was in a very deep, uncomfortable depression. I was 21 and at the point in my life where I was “over” dragging around the bipolar diagnosis I had received almost five years earlier. Having moved to a city, I felt a burst of opportunity that was weighed down by the darkness of my mind. Unfortunately, I had a brief struggle with suicidal ideation. I knew I had to keep slugging through. I felt the effort I made wasn’t for me, but because I was supported by a team who would not let me fall.
I’m the girl who sits in the back of the classroom with my friends, always a huge dopey smile across my face. From the outside, I look fine. Unless I tell you what I’m going through, you will never know. I refuse to let you think less of me because of my struggles. So, you think I’m happy. What you don’t know is how many times during class I plot ways to escape to the bathroom so I don’t break down in front of everyone. You don’t see the breakdowns that occur when I’m all alone.
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