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Happy I meant to send this on Friday but Lenny didn’t nap then I procrastinated on Monday so Tuesday it is to YOU! Diving right in. Last Friday marked ONE YEAR of us moving from Costa Rica to New York and wowwww how is any of that even real?

Hey You, I don’t really feel like small talk this week. I can’t stop thinking about the photo of Nolan Wells circulating around. The one of him, a young Black man, sitting on a boat with his white supposed friends. Because there are no such things as coincidences, immediately after seeing this photo of Nolan Wells on instagram, I came across a photo of my son, Wes, posted on his summer camp instagram page in a sea of white children, all with their gummy gap tooth smiles.

Happy Last Day of Prek3 at New York City Public Schools for all who celebrate! I’m not gonna lie, I am very unprepared for substackU this week. But I am reaaaaaally trying to stay consistent with writing, because my brain needs consistency to believe things are real. So here we are, trying! Also, I don’t know about you, but this time of year (helloooo cancer season) naturally activates sad girl summer vibes for me. But something equally powerful is brewing within.

HAPPY FRIDAY/KNICKS IN FIVE/JUNETEENTH! In honor of Juneteenth and the Knicks winning the 2026 NBA Championship, I’m taking a break from writing this week and asked my wonderful, white, ally, husband, Sam, to fill in. Sam is a lifelong Knicks fan and has taught me everything I know about this team past and present.

I fully forgot to send this last week, but we’re jumping right in! Lenox Lyn Walker aka Lenny Lyn aka Lenny Lentils, Lenwich, Leonardo, Lenny Bug, Lilly (when Wes is trolling her), Lenita Petita turned ONE two-ish weeks ago, and I am deeeeep in my feels about it. I’m also feeling major parent/life burn out right now, but I’m desperately trying to dig myself out of the mud a la the Knicks in game 4 of the NBA finals.

Heyaaaaaaaaaaa! This week I’ve been working around the clock (I’m.not.kidding) to get ready for Lenny’s first birthday celebration, so writing has taken a back seat. But rest assured — I’ll be back next week with mannnnnnny words about having a daughter who is one year old. Happy birthday Lenox Lyn Walker! You are one of one. love, Jesse All Mixt Up is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.

a short stack Hi hi, This week has felt like a combination of cement, honey and thunderstorms. While there is a lot I want to write about and share, I’m pressing a gentle pause on my need to make! create! and produce! right now. I know the universe is telling me, chill girl, and even though I hate when anyone tells me to chill, I know she’s right.

Dear You, Let’s get right into it! I recently stumbled upon the below meme and my life will never be the same. A Diva Has Distractions is the only way I will be referring to my ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) here on out. And when I really think about it… ADHD is so diva coded.

Hello from the other siiiiiiide, I wanted to start by saying thank you thank you THANK YOU to every single person who reached out to me about last week’s post to celebrate my rage and share similar sentiments. I really do believe we all just want to feel seen and like our feelings aren’t too much. I will say that I’m feeling a bit chippier this week.

Hey what’s up hello, I’d like to start by acknowledging that I’ve already failed at my intention of posting a new substack article every Wednesday. Friday it is until it isn’t! Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, I’d also like to announce that I am experiencing a level of rage coarsing through my veins that is powerfullllll. At first, I considered skipping writing this week, waiting until I could think of something more uplifting and joyous to share with you. But then I thought — fuck it.