Nokuthula Ndamane’s son, Bonginkosi, both motivates her to beat her drug addiction and is a reflection of how much nyaope has completely taken over her life. The five-year-old lives with Ndamane’s relatives in Ladysmith, KwaZulu-Natal, hundreds of kilometres from where Ndamane lives in Mayfield Ext 5 in Ekurhuleni, Gauteng. “I ask myself when he is crying, who is he calling out to? Who is he calling mother?