Cutting my hair off wasn’t supposed to be this radical thing. I was desperate and hormonal, coming off nearly three years of breastfeeding and months of being touched out. I was looking forward to a blow-out that made me feel human again. Then, disaster struck. Expecting to get back a head full of kinky curls, I was instead left with a flat, matted mess that smelled burnt after a shower. Heat damage. This wasn’t the first time my hair had been permanently altered.