David Guetta and Sia … ‘I needed something to drag the hope back into me’.Illustration: Martin O'Neill/The Guardian (Illustration: Martin O'Neill/The Guardian) At the end of 2011, party season was under way but I was in no mood for festivities. Two years into fertility treatment, my body was pumped full of synthetic hormones and felt like a pin cushion, while my head was filled with both the fragile hope of having a baby, and the exhaustion of failed clinical attempts to do so.