Each fortnight, Victoria Carter speaks to someone about failure and disappointment and what they learned. This week, she talks to Pattrick Smellie, co-founder of BusinessDesk.I was really disappointed when: I realised I didn’t want to be a journalist any more. I fell into a bit of a depressive hole in about 2000. I realised I couldn’t write for Time magazine. I was freelancing, I was the NZ Pacific correspondent for Time, and I just couldn’t get their style; usually, I can suss what’s required.