Sarah Cavar

Content note: includes discussion of eugenic ableism, medical abuse, institutionalization, white supremacist murder Memory is important. But your own personal memory is not necessary. The best of human memory is fallible, changing, and fickle. And memory can fail. In so many ways they can’t be counted. It can be frightening when memory disappears. In all the ways it can disappear. Temporarily. Permanently. Memory is not what defines us. We are still here even when we can’t remember.

The Infinite Doors at the Center of Myself If you enjoy reading Electric Literature, join our mailing list! We’ll send you the best of EL each week, and you’ll be the first to know about upcoming submissions periods and virtual events. Differential Diagnosis There is a door at the center of myself. That door belies the existence of many other doors. This trend knows no sign of stopping. (I dislike it. But it must be.) I am really made of little vaults. Vaults the color of my insides.

Elliot Page as Vanya in The Umbrella Academy (Photo credit: Netflix) On December 1, longtime queer actor-activist Elliot Page of Juno (2007), Inception (2010), and most recently Umbrella Academy (2019), came out as trans, writing a heartfelt letter shared across social media: “Hi friends, I want to share with you that I am trans, my pronouns are he/they and my name is Elliot. I feel lucky to be writing this. To be here.