It's the summer of 1994, I am standing at the edge of a cliff in Kamloops, British Columbia, and I am checking out. In February, as a 21-year-old starting goalie, I'd backstopped Canada to an Olympic silver medal. In June, as the third goalie for the New York Rangers, I'd drunk out of the Stanley Cup. I have a girlfriend at home. I have a turbo sports car parked behind me. I have the horizon in front of me - so much horizon - and as I look out past the end of it, I am completely calm.